Once upon a time, I was talking to this boy. We'd never met. He thought he was falling for me. As precedence has shown, it would all be over soon enough, leaving me with an empty hole where I used to keep my hidden stash of hope. Maybe.
Anyway, this boy made me think of a song. He was interested in girl he'd never met, based purely on personality. He was swooning over me for the things all people should be smitten about, and I was finding myself hopeful that it would remain that way. I thought of this line, "Well do you find you like to fall in love with people that you're never gonna meet? It's easier than breaking up and crying in the street." The song is "Love Love, Kiss Kiss" by Alkaline Trio. I'd been listening to them nonstop lately. I don't know why. I hadn't listened to many songs with the word love in them in ages.
He wouldn't stop driving me crazy, crazy in the good way. Crazy in the way you can't get him out of your head or out of your heart. Crazy in the way my heart feels overinflated and my hands are shaking and my lips long for something more. Breathless. Speechless. Painless. Hopeful.
I really wish I at least knew why I couldn't stop thinking about him. Is it his entrancing eyes, common interests, lexicon, or something much less obvious? I knew I didn't have a chance, but there I was, falling anyway. Damnit, I'm so stupid. I don't care. I'm loving being so close to love anyway. I haven't written with this particular brand of inspiration in a while. It feels nice.
Here's the song:
I listened to the song, then I made the above picture. Click for a full version. Enjoy <3
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