This Whole "Alone" Thing

Being alone like this is so terrifying because I finally have to face myself and my issues. I have to deal with it all, and I need to do it quickly and efficiently if I want to survive.

I'm falling apart at the seams and all I have is myself. The girl who has always derived self worth from the affection, attention, approval, and happiness of her romantic attachments is off the market but alone and lonely. How deliciously and cruelly ironic.

I think, sometime this week, I will go out by myself and conquer my anxieties about being in public alone. I'm going to be spending a lot of time alone for the next year or two while I'm getting my life on track and waiting. Until things settle down, I have to face my biggest fear of spending time with myself.

I can't rely on anyone else anymore, so I have to be my own distraction, companion, and love.