Why?

You meant next to nothing. It was just fun. I said I loved you when caught up in the moment. I said it to humor you while taking mental notes of the fact that I indeed loved you as a person, but not in an extreme romantic way. Why can't I get you out of my head? Why did you have the power to hurt me? Why can you influence my feeling of self worth? This is stupid beyond belief. It was just a few weeks. You didn't mean a thing. Maybe it just bothers me that you twisted everything around and blamed what you did on me. Surely you're not mentally sane. Surely you're not emotionally stable. Surely you are the definition of screwed up embodied. Then why do I care? Why can't I get you out of my head?

You meant nothing to me. It was just new. I said I loved you because I did love you as a friend. You were always betraying me and hurting me and fighting with me. Why did this surprise me? Why was I so shocked? Why do you have the power to upset me? Why are you still trying? Maybe it is because you're a hypocrite. You said you could never be just my friend and now expect me to be. Why do I care? Why can't I get you out of my head?

Why did I have to lose everything at once?